i thought tumblr was a place that i could share my feelings whether they be something i have a strong feeling towards or something that is a fleeting thought and helps me to post to vent and then is gone from my mind.  it is apparent that i was wrong,  it is apparent that this is not a place with friends that i can trust.  it is apparent that this is not somewhere safe for me to express myself and vent to release anything.

i have never claimed to be kind or mean or cruel or caring to anything or anyone in any of my posts. tumblr is a sort of open diary to me, and i considered it like sharing feelings i have with a close and trusted friend.  whether it is of something that is happened to me that angers me for a moment or angers me for a month, this is where i was able to find contentment in releasing and verbalizing these feelings.  but obviously the people who i have shared these feelings and thoughts with are not trusting, and are not friends.  they obviously do not care about me, my feelings, or my viewpoints.  if they cared for me they would express concern to me and not to parties that are mentioned in my posts, thus possibly ruining a relationship with someone i have been trying to rebuild.  i take responsibility for what i wrote, and though it was not meant to be mean intentioned, as it was not intented to be read by anyone other than these apparent “trusted friends”, i will take whatever happens and help to repair what has been done.  but those of you on here, and i am certain of who has broken my trust, we are through.  this is the last straw of many. 

i will no longer be posting on tumblr as it is obviously not what i had hoped it to be for myself.  i hope those involved know what they have done.  i dont blame them for my words but i put blame in other meanings.  if the intent was to hurt me, then you have succeeded. 

i will not be deleting this tumblr as i want to make sure that this message is read by the parties i intend it for.  that’s all.

things i dont need:

talking about me behind my back

judging my decisions

questioning my decisions

things i do need:

friends who will listen

friends who won’t judge

friends who will be understanding and supportive

so thanks. because you obviously can’t be what i need.

<3

no one

keepcalmandgosurfing:

tyleroakley:

do-not-toy-with-my-emotions:

Our 14-year-old dog Abbey died last month. The day after she passed away my 4-year-old daughter Meredith was crying and talking about how much she missed Abbey. She asked if we could write a letter to God so that when Abbey got to heaven, God would recognize her. I told her that I thought we could so, and she dictated these words: 

Dear God,

Will you please take care of my dog? She died yesterday and is with you in heaven. I miss her very much. I am happy that you let me have her as my dog even though she got sick. 

I hope you will play with her. She likes to swim and play with balls. I am sending a picture of her so when you see her you will know that she is my dog. I really miss her. 

Love, Meredith

We put the letter in an envelope with a picture of Abbey and Meredith and addressed it to God/Heaven. We put our return address on it. Then Meredith pasted several stamps on the front of the envelope because she said it would take lots of stamps to get the letter all the way to heaven. That afternoon she dropped it into the letter box at the post office. A few days later, she asked if God had gotten the letter yet. I told her that I thought He had.

Yesterday, there was a package wrapped in gold paper on our front porch addressed, ‘To Meredith’ in an unfamiliar hand. Meredith opened it. Inside was a book by Mr. Rogers called, ‘When a Pet Dies.’ Taped to the inside front cover was the letter we had written to God in its opened envelope. On the opposite page was the picture of Abbey & Meredith and this note: 

Dear Meredith, 

Abbey arrived safely in heaven. Having the picture was a big help and I recognized her right away. 

Abbey isn’t sick anymore. Her spirit is here with me just like it stays in your heart. Abbey loved being your dog. Since we don’t need our bodies in heaven, I don’t have any pockets to keep your picture in so I am sending it back to you in this little book for you to keep and have something to remember Abbey by. 

Thank you for the beautiful letter and thank your mother for helping you write it and sending it to me. What a wonderful mother you have. I picked her especially for you. I send my blessings every day and remember that I love you very much. By the way, I’m easy to find. I am wherever there is love. 

Love, God 

Don’t say you’re too busy to reblog this.

TEARS.

i’m literally crying

humanity for the win.

azgirl91:

This pair of embracing human skeletons was found at a Neolithic archaeological dig site near Mantova, Italy, in this photo released by Reuters on February 6, 2007. Archaeologists believe the couple was buried 5000-6000 years ago, their arms wrapped around each other

the trial overturned the guilty verdict and they will be set free.

wow.

imperialbedrooms:

Kavinsky & Lovefoxxx | Nightcall

Musical excellence 

so good